I believe, everyone experienced this kind of feeling. A feeling where you thought that there is hope and you are happy that it will happen for sure till you realize that this is nothing but false hope. As good as bringing you up to the highest mountain of the world to view the scenery. But it is just a way to get push or jump down to the ground.

The pain.. Well, something to be glad of is, you are not really literally got push or jumped down. So, no blood no physical pain. It's this pain that torture you, mentally. 

This is totally insane. Outrageous. 

At this particular night, yet again, i am missing you. I'm sorry, i'm weak and yes, a coward too. Nobody is perfect, eh?

Gonna cry myself to sleep again? *laughs* No. I doubt so. Life is really very short. After saving this post, i will be smiling and wipe away tears that are dwelling in my eyes. No worries. Life moves on with my family and my close gal friends. 

Without them, i'm just something that lives in this world aimlessly. Just like a lost puppy. With them, i'm great! Really very glad to have their support.